My conflicting lifestyle

I know I haven been blogging for awhile, I have a whole load of stuff happening for me right now.
Honestly, I dun know if I wanna me FABULOUS Pristique or Humble Priscilla. This is such a war within myself.

By day, I am a teacher in a Special school helping students with Cerebal Palsy. By noon I am a fierce image consultant and boy u dun wanna mess with this bitch once she is in her zone.

For the past one year, I have been living the life of humanity, doing what I think is LOGICAL and right. For the first time in my life I have the lowest paid job that comes with the utmost respect from the public, my family and my parents friends. That is pretty important to me, for a girl that has had such a infamous past, this is another level of respect I have gained for myself. Who would have known I enjoyed being an educator when half my life I have been avoiding them. Pretty contradicting right?

So I am torn apart, to be a fabulous or humble pie.

Right now I do conduct make up lessons for my school's staff and teachers as part of the school welfare community. I love it! Even if I dun get paid out of this. It's exhilarating and fun to impart knowledge of beauty to ladies and women of all faces!

However it haunts me to know that I enjoy teaching and talking about MAKE UP ARTISTRY so much. It is really freaking me out! When I talk about make up, my lids light up and I am exhilirated!! It's the most amazing high in the world.

I am now ar cross roads, I can either go take a professional diploma in Makeup artistry or I can do a masters in special education.

With a masters, I am more or less stable in my income and life. With make up, you never know how much you are going to make even though I am loving what I do.

BUT I LOVE MYLIFE AND ME AND IN NO WAY INCONFIDENT ABOUT MYSELF!